Updated: Aug 4, 2021
One hundred gold stars. One hundred open mics.
This has become my mantra of late. Late one gloomy afternoon, as I was pondering my place in life, I realized that everything I've every wanted lies on the other side of fear. Fear is that perfect boundary that keeps us tethered comfortably in our pre-defined comfort zones.
I used to procrastinate on just about everything, thinking that once I was no longer afraid of a thing, then I would finally do it. But then I realized that the only way to no longer be afraid of a thing, is to just do it. Be afraid, and do it anyways.
From as far back as I can remember picking up a guitar and writing songs for the first time, all I've ever really wanted to do with my life was music. That overwhelming feeling of euphoric epiphany that I get when I am fully and completely lost in the moment is truly something awe-inspiring to experience. I always knew what I wanted to do with my life, and yet I never truly committed to living my dreams. The fear of being vulnerable and exposing my innermost feelings and thoughts through song kept me from following through.
It's taken longer than I had hoped, but I have finally decided "What the hell? Why not?" I have committed myself to playing 100 open mics. No expectations. No attachment to a desired outcome. No judgment of subjective experience. The playing is the only goal. For each open mic or solo gig that I play, I will award myself one gold star. Each star will go on my guitar as a reminder of how far I've come. By earning 100 gold stars, I will redefine the boundaries of my comfort zone. And some pretty amazing things just may happen as a result.
Last night I earned my first goal star. Next week I will earn two more. Only 97 more to go.
I will document my experiences by updating this blog regularly.